School & work

miércoles, 23 de julio de 2008

I've noticed something lately. It seems that all of my friends and related that blog, seem happier than me... I mean just looking to his blogs, makes wanna change my way of life drastically, they always seem to be happy, and always hanging out with friends, and ALSO having a lot of time to blog all this stuffs. I wanna be like them... I've also noticed, that all the people who seems happier than me, is still at school, not because they're studying medicine (well; someones do, did you read me Adly?) or a master, but because they're younger than me or they were lazy at school and are still catching up with all of us, I always fantasize of having enough money to not have to work the rest of my life, silly, anyway
And all of my people who blogs and are still at school, complains about homeworks, about exams, about deadlines, jujujujujuju, I laugh at you all silly people, I've been trough there and let's get serious, IT'S NO BIG DEAL, basically school is about having fun, I know that uses to get stressing sometimes, but this is not all the time, come on people school is about having fun, and friends, and hanging out with them, you'll see when you get a serious work, DEADLINES NEVER END, you just finished something, and even can't take a second to breath, because there's still another task, waiting to be done, and with (oh surprise!) a close deadline, and you're ALWAYS working under pressure (by the way, I work well under pressure, it results me: challenging), there's no rest at all, and you get so involved to that, that suddenly it becomes part of your way of life (I even dream with my work sometimes!) well that's something expected, I mean, working people spends more than one third of their ENTIRE day at work, another third sleeping, and part of the other third transporting to the job (or eating, jejeje); well, I know not all the jobs are this way, and lately I've start to think just mine.
(Sigh)
Seems that the actual society wants us to work like donkeys until we just explode dead tired:
work, work, work, money, money, money, buy, buy, buy... sigh. We spend so much time at work, that's because it's so important to work in something that satisfy you.
All the people who I know, that is working, is very involved with their jobs, and they have talks about work, they're busy at all time, they hang out with with their workmates; tasks, projects, employees, deadlines, etc. Some of them even blog about work (like me)
(Take a look at the blog of this cool girls, whom recently entered in the blogger's "blogs of note")
Working Girl
I don't know, maybe later I'll see them in this side, and I'll be happily saying in my insides: bwajajaja at least!!! Or maybe not, and I'll be envying them, for having the life I want ¿Am I a looser?

miércoles, 2 de julio de 2008

I was talking with Alejandra the other day, she felt lonely... Told her that I feel the same way sometimes, it result to be, that our feelings in such days, are very similar.
Why do we feel lonely? when it seems that we are just starting our way trough life? (as the olders say) I mean, both of we, just started to live by ourselves, we work, we make money, we are independent! with the rest of our lives before us, it's no time to feel lonely, but to feel joy (As the olders told us). You know, is about enjoying our just acquired independence, to succeed in our careers, to rely on the total lack of responsability... and we feel lonely? maybe this is growing up, but, if it is, sucks, totally crap.
In times like that, I feel, like if ALL the other people, are just wearing masks, such masks, just show what's correct to our society, but hide everything that we don't want the other people to know, it's horrible, you feel like there's no one I can count on, no one cares about you, altough I know that not all the people are this way, is hard those days to recover that knowledge.
In such days, I think that I would feel relieved if I had a girlfiend by my side, you know, just cuddle together, and to tell me: "It's ok, don't worry, stand up, clean your knees. And let's face the world together". I guess a lot of people use to think that way in some point of their lifes, it's useless, I know, that my happyness is only inside me, and no one deserves to carry on the responsability to complete my life, because I must be a complete man, all alone.
However, those days always pass away, but unfortunately, as easy as they go, they come, and this cycle repeats again. Most of the time, I feel happy, and that I have an objective, but just to think that those days will come again.
What kind of events trigger these feelings? and if I knew them, should I avoid it? I don't know.
Those days are hard, the loneliness is so crushing, but you are surrounded by people, that makes it heavier.
All it's mazed, will I feel complete ever?
Please tell me if you understand what I feel, and share with me what you think, I'll see if that help me in the next sadnes season, lol