martes, 14 de octubre de 2008
This girl amazes and confuses me at the same
She amazes me, because she seems kinda unique to me, she's smart and funny
But she's a riddle to me.
In the first days I met her, she looked for me very often, to talk or joke around, I liked that, because generally I'm the one who look for my girlfriends, I mean, they kinda never phone me, or text me, or email me... If I don't do it first, maybe it's my imagination, or maybe they are as lazy as me about to keeping in touch, Anyway.
She has a boyfriend, a fiance; and for such reason, I tagged her as my friend, and nothing more, I really meant that, and I never thought that we would have something more than a very good friendship. But a few days ago, she said that she likes me a lot, my face in that moment would be like "uh?", and I said nothing, mainly because I didn't know how to answer that, I mean that declaration couldn't involve nothing romantic because she has a boyfriend, a fiance! She asked me if I act always the same when someone says that likes me. I answered: "I know that this declaration has no romantic intentions since it comes from you", and she replied: "sorry, let me explain myself, I said that I like you, but I like you as a friend, because you're very nice, you like me?", I said that she is a very nice and cool person, everything clear to that point, I misunderstood.
But after that some things had happened, she looks for me me more frequently, and some times she says some things that really confuses me a lot, like that she likes my smile, and some other stuff like that.
And right now I don't know where I'm standed, She likes me in a romantic way? We're just good friends? I got my mind up, and I was very convinced that we just would be friends, because she's not available, but now, sometimes i think stuff like this: "And if she didn't have a boyfriend? what would I do?" I would chase her looking for a romantic relationship? But the fact is, that she does have a boyfriend, and I'm very clear at this point, I would not involve with a woman who's already in a relationship, it's my politic, and I'll always stick to it, because someone cheating on me? it's not a nice thing, I know that.
And that's because I will do nothing, NOTHING at all, I won't move one single step for having an romantic relationship with this woman, or giving her hopes that she stand a chance with me, at least while she has a boyfriend, and I don't know if even when she left her boyfriend is ok, I mean, breaking a relationship with a fiance. Would this girl be ready to ride into another man just when she left someone whom she was going to marry? dunno.
But I don't wanna kick her off, I still want to have her as a friend, and besides that, there's the fact that I could be misunderstanding all of this things, and she just wanna be friends for real. I could ask her, but I'm afraid of his answer, what if she gets mad at me because I ever thought that she has other intentions than being good friends.
I don't know what to do, and still I'm gonna do nothing.
Am I acting the right way?