domingo, 23 de noviembre de 2008
I've been very sensitive this days, and I mean VERY.
I've realized that I'm coping with all the heartbreak thing the wrong way, I'm always thinking about the wonderful girl that will arrive someday to my life, and all the things we're gonna do, in a very obsessive way, I even had dreams about girls, that I only know in my dreams, not a girl in particular, not her... I used to dream about her almost everyday, but those days passed away... about three weeks ago... anyway, all the people told me: "There's a wonderful woman for you out there, and some day she will find you". But I misunderstood, she will not come to my life if I wait for her, neither if I go searching her. What I need to do, is to continue my life, to pursue my dreams, do what I want to do... and then in the less unexpected moment... she will show off out of the blue.
So I decided to change my mental scheme, I used to fantasize about having a girlfriend, and the wonderful things we could do... but no more, every time I realize that I'm going through the same pattern, I pause myself, thinking that I have a lot of things to do, things that I've been postponing for a very long time, so I'm stopping all of my fantasize, and trying to become more of a reality boy, I mean: "here and now", oh yeah, the future seems to become promising, but that won't happen if I stay sited waiting for a faceless woman, so please help me, cheer me up, and remind me to finish all the things I have to finish.
That's my plan, but I still can do nothing about the dream's realms, what will happen? I don't know, but I haven't dreamed about girls since about three days ago, and I'm still very sensitive, I swear to you, that sometimes neither I can bear with myself, sad songs always have me on the edge of tears, I sigh frequently, and that feeling of something blocking my throat have come back, not as frequently as in the first days of all the drama, but sometimes. I thought it had dissapeared forever... I knew that this pain was physical too, but I've understood what all they said
In the meantime, let me introduce you a wonderful wedding photographer from San Francisco
She is so creative and so sensitive to the love, she always seem to be in the right place at the right moment, and she is great working with the people too. Looking at her photographs makes me want to become a blue prince, and to have an enormous dream wedding with all my related and friends, full of love
But right now, this song resumes where I wanna be:
Ladies and gentlemen (but specially ladies)... Dierks Bentley - Free and Easy (Down The Road I Go)